BEING REAL WITH GOD
In the Bible study I am a part of, it emphasized the need to be honest with God. Psalm 89 (and many of David’s psalms) tells of his pouring his heart of frustration out to the Lord. Somehow it gave me courage to do the same when Covid attacked one of my family and I faced the possibility I could lose a loved one. I railed against God with tears of doubt and overwhelming fear. Why would he allow Covid to attack my family when every day I covered them with the blood of Jesus and declared “no plague would come near their dwelling,” according to Psalm 91? I told Him I didn’t understand why then did it happen? I too poured out my frustration, reminding God I had asked in faith and truly believed His promise to protect them. Instead of being weary of my rant, He drew close, and a great peace overcame me, I felt God’s presence in a tangible way. I still didn’t understand. Why had the plague entered their bodies? But the “whys” faded as His love surrounded me and comforted me. I knew no matter what came to be it was alright. He is God and He is and will always be there for me. A knowing He was pleased with my daring to be honest with Him engulfed me. To trust Him with the reality I’d tried to cover with faith declarations, pleased Him and opened a deeper door to the intimacy I have hungered for. I became aware of a new dimension of His love I had yet to uncover. Like David, at the end of the Psalm, I joyfully proclaimed God is faithful.
“For He will deliver the needy when he cries…” Psalm 72:12 NKJV